Psalm 51: 17 " The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit; a broken and contrite heart, O God you will not despise"

It's so hard to stay away. Every minute, every second, every moment.

The more you distant yourself, the more you feel upset because you see the distance.

And your mind begins to play tricks on you.

Like seriously, a lot of tricks.

but whatever it is, it's worth it. It's pointless to hold on to something that's not as worth it.

Philippians 3:8 "Yes, furthermore, i count everything as loss compared to the possession of the priceless privilege of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord and of progressively becoming more deeply and intimately acquainted with Him. For His sake I have lost everything and consider it all to be mere rubbish, in order that i may win Christ."

Yes, God is so worth it. I'm not psycho-ing myself or whatsoever. But it's the truth. He's so worth it.

Just need to get over with this. Stop thinking. Stop thinking.

Don't know how its going to work.

Don't know how its going to end.

Don't know what to do about it.

Don't know anything..

need divine help. need a sign.

Argh.. so much stuff going on.

Lord. all i want is just to fix my eyes on you, and your will for me.

Just needing you more than ever.

All i need is you.

The Lord has promised good to me

His word my hope secures

He will my shield and portion be

as long as life endures

My chains are gone

I've been set free

My God, my Savior has ransomed me

And like a flood His mercy rains

Unending love,

Amazing grace

Sometimes, trials come to you over and over again, not because you're weak, but because God is strong. He wants you to overcome the areas in life. He wants to show you how perfect is His strength amidst your weakness. He wants to demonstrate how you CAN overcome with Christ.

I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me ~ Philippians 4:13

God has never intended you to be an average person, His perfect will for you is to be more than a conqueror. Isn't God just amazing? We need to hang on, keep hanging on. No matter what comes in the way, we will hang on. No matter what giants come, we shall be that stone wall that stands firm. We shall be unshakeable.

In all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us ~ Romans 8:37

God is just awesome, when you fix your eyes on Him, and do what He wants you to do, He equips you.

With God's grace i have finally out how to play Chopin's Fantasie impromptu in C sharp minor. The horrid 16 beats on the right hand and triplets on the left. But God finally opened my eyes to help me know how to fit these beats together. FINALLY!!!! Wooohoooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!

Help me..

it's the same trap over and over again.

i cant take it....................... i dont want to go thru it.

just want to run away and hide.

but i cant................

i cant.......

its so messy...

everything's so messy...

my mind's in a mess..

my heart's in a mess..

why....

i thought the trial was over...

i thought i had succeeded..

but it wasnt about the situation..

it was about the inside.

The hand that holds the world, is holding mine.

Lord, you have placed me in trials that i've often avoided. But i know that you want me to overcome them rather than to just hide from it or shove it one side.

I love you Jesus.

Lord you are more precious than silver,

Lord you are more costly than gold,

Lord you are more beautiful than diamonds,

and Nothing i desire, compares to you.

Thank you Lord for such a wonderful time of worship today. Indeed, better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere. I'd rather be your doorkeeper in your house than dwell in the tents of the wicked.

God has His ways of cheering us up. Really. I love Him so much.